wreckage

i think i was born broken and i feel embarrassed to send in new declaration forms to my insurance company, after having sent dentist bills and jaw surgeon bills.. as of yesterday i have another bill to send them.

i came to school chipper as i always am, maybe a bit tired but oh well, i still don't like getting up early. i took off my bag and

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it just snapped. my neck and shoulder muscles got stuck and the pain was undescribable. they took me to the emergency room at the most retarded hospital i ever went to, i don't want to go into this, and after taking neck x-rays and waiting for hours i could go home with a prescription for inflammation killers. this neck-shoulder-muscle-popping thing has happened 3 times now in 5 years. i seriously need to start working out and i'm thinking maybe working in the digital industry isn't such a good idea..

but i never listen to anyone, especially not to myself. i'll start swimming again and run around, i don't want to give up my computer.